So it's been awhile since I have put in an entry... this semester has gone by so fast... I am 21, officially since yesterday. It was my 21st birthday... It is so weird, I just don't feel ready to be 21. I kind of had a reflection day because I just hurt over stupid things and I have learned in the words of Carrie Underwood that pages are turned, bridges are burned, but really lessons are learned and through those lessons I'm growing into the woman that my Heavely Father wants me to be. I love the gospel of Jesus Christ. It has completely changed my life. It gives me life and light and I need to learn that no matter how dark it is and how long I've been walking in the dark I just need to keep following him. Tommorrow will be the 3 year mark of my baptism... I can't believe it's been so long! I know that the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints is the true and everlasting church that brought back the restoration of the gospel. Life is really hard, even when you have nothing to be sad about, even when life should be dandy and you have all the blessings in the world sometimes one thing can just bring you down. I have been feeling like that I have so many things to be grateful in my life right now, I have amazing friends who love me, I'm healthy, I attend an amazing University, I had food on my table, clothes to dress me, and a roof over my head, I have an amazing job, and an amazing boss. I have fun times, and I'm a smart girl and I have always torn myself to pieces and I've never had any confidence and for the first time in my life I have confidence, I am a daughter of a great King in Heaven who loves me dearly and that's all that matters... yet I still have that emptiness lurking inside of me... I just need to stop being a baby and suck it up.... I know that when I someday get to sit and speak with God that we'll be laughing at how immature I was at 21 and I'll be looking over the amazing life I had... but waiting for it to happen is the hard part, I wonder if my patience is being tested... I bet so
well I leave you guys here with an amazing song ( watch it on youtube the link is at the bottom of this entry.)
"Lessons Learned" by Carrie Underwood- There's some things that I regret,Some words I wish had gone unsaid,Some starts,That had some bitter endings,Been some bad times I've been through,Damage I cannot undo,Some things,I wish I could do all all over again,But it don't really matter,Life gets that much harder,It makes you that much stronger,Oh, some pages turned,Some bridges burned,But there were,Lessons learned.[Chorus:]And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,Everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,Every change, life has thrown me,I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,I'm grateful, for every scar,Some pages turned,Some bridges burned,But there were lessons learned.There's mistakes that I have made,Some chances I just threw away,Some roads,I never should've taken,Been some signs I didn't see,Hearts that I hurt needlessly,Some wounds,That I wish I could have one more chance to mend,But it don't make no difference,The past can't be rewritten,You get the life you're given,Oh, some pages turned,Some bridges burned,But there were,Lessons learned.[Chorus:]And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,Everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,Every change, life has thrown me,I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,I'm grateful, for every scar,Some pages turned,Some bridges burned,But there were lessons learned.And all the things that break you,Are all the things that make you strong,You can't change the past,Cause it's gone,And you just gotta move on,Because it's all,Lessons learned.[Chorus:]And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,Everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,Every change, life has thrown me,I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,I'm grateful, for every scar,Some pages turned,Some bridges burned,But there were lessons learned,Oh, some pages turned,Some bridges burned,But there were lessons learned,Lessons learned.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7mSm19ETQvg
d calm and gives you space to think. I love all my friends here. So... I have to say that I'm in a place right now... one of my bestfriend's brother just went missing. He's an awesome man and I'm just asking all of you to keep him in your prayers. His name is John Alley... Let's all pray that we find him. If you know anyone in the Southern part of the US please let us know and send them a picture of John so they can be on the look out. He was last seen in midland FL. Thanks everyone. 
d calm and gives you space to think. I love all my friends here. So... I have to say that I'm in a place right now... one of my bestfriend's brother just went missing. He's an awesome man and I'm just asking all of you to keep him in your prayers. His name is John Alley... Let's all pray that we find him. If you know anyone in the Southern part of the US please let us know and send them a picture of John so they can be on the look out. He was last seen in midland FL. Thanks everyone. 
