Confusion...

Ralph Waldo Emerson once said these few things:

"People wish to be settled: only as far as they are unsettled is there any hope for them." 

"Everything in the universe goes by indirection. There are no straight lines." 

Sometimes I think to myself that I cause my own confusion for life... The answer is my Heavenly Father, right? But sometimes he doesn't give you the answer.... sometimes he wants you to figure it out on your own... sometimes he trusts you enough... but what... what if you don't trust yourself 

The sunrise comes out of the east 

And I am standing still 

My heart thumps louder than those in Edgar's thoughts (The Tell-Tale Heart) 

and my eyelids are feeling heavy 

My thoughts tire me out

but I still hear that voice calling out to me 

My confusion rises with the moon 

And the day has gone by 

I wish I understood the darkness 

and I wish I understood the unknown 

But I guess I need to let myself be lead,

and just go not knowing beforehand the things which I should do (1 Nephi 4:6)

I need to trust myself and know that he'll be by my side 

"Pleasure in the job puts perfection in the work" ( Aristotle) 

Remember to enjoy the the journey and trust in Christ, ( President Monson) 

The perfection will come...

I really need to rely on the Lord more... I don't enough... I say that I have faith and trust him but still worry.. but honestly I'm more worried about making the right choices in my life.... I guess he will never let me go the wrong way so I should just decide and go with it! 

Oh life... *sigh* 

I love the Temple

I had a rough day today... devotional hit my heart pretty hard and I sat with a friend afterwards and cried for about an hour 

He told me that I have to go to the Temple and pray and read my patriarchal blessing... 

I was at first thinking I don't have time, but my friend said I had to... it would make me feel better... and I so I went to the temple... As I was sitting there  in front of the doors of the baptisms and I saw a bunch of students going in and I asked if they had a baptismal appt. I recognized one of the girls and we were chatting.... 

I got this feeling that I should join them in the baptisms... I thought to myself I don't have time," orchid just pray, feel better and LEAVE you have tons to do... "

Well I remembered how I have been getting the feeling to follow prompting... SO I did... I followed the prompting and went ahead and joined them for baptisms! 

As I sat there I read my patriarchal blessing and it kind of made me feel good to know the things that I will be blessed with if I make sure and follow my Heavenly Father.... I then decided to start reading the Book of Mormon. I started reading Ether 2 and in Ether 2 if you go to the last verse :

Ether 2:25, " ANd behold, I prepare you against these things; for ye cannot cross this great deep save I prepare you against the waves of the sea, and the winds which have gone forth, and the floods which shall come. Therefore what will ye that I should prepare for you that ye may have light when ye are swallowed up in the depths of the sea?"

I learned from that scripture and the story of Ether 2 that I can't live life without my Heavenly Father. I need him, only he can get me through the storm, he'll be my breathe of life from the hole of the barge, and he will be my light in the dark, just as he was blessing the brother of Jared. Oh I love the Scriptures...

I left feeling amazing... I felt so much better... I love the Temple and I have such a great testimony of it... I can't wait until I am able to receive my endowments, I know I will LOVE it and be so excited to go to sessions all the time! I love the Temple and I want to spend my life preparing for it and living as if I am already endowed so that nothing will stop me when it is time to go for myself! Oh how I LOVE the TEMPLE!!! 

Love Story

I seriously am so in love with love... I'm such a sap..

almost a year ago I finally ended things with a boy that I was madly in love with...

Sometimes I don't understand the paths I'm lead in

I found him my Romeo, the one that I wanted to be with forever.... but there lied a problem I couldn't be with him forever it hurts alot sometimes.... Even a year later I still am hurting

I found him why do I have to search again.... I almost don't want to. 

I'm not in love with him anymore but I just don't want to go through the pain of sharing my life with someone all over again and then getting my heart RE BROKEN.... Oh life... Please listen to this song by Taylor Swift: 

IT's called Love Story: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AwMK9IvEsF0

I know I'm the worst blogger in the whole world, but I just feel like I have to blog about something really exciting.... I was informed by Brighton, my amazing roommate that it didn't have to be that exciting. Well I actually have a few exciting things to blog about:

1) I was called to be the Director of ITEAM next semester! I am so excited! It's going to be a load of work, but so worth it! I'm so excited to be able to be with the SSE and to use the spirit to add a great time to the students on this campus!! 

2) I went bouldering for the first time. I got blisters all over my hands and it was wonderful! I loved it! It's hard and it takes a lot of muscle, which I don't have, but it was so fun... 

3) Finally I went Country Dancing tonight for the first time!! It was so fun and I loved it so much!! I am going to go next week too! I am really bad at Country Dancing, but it's okay perfection takes practice right? 

Anyways sadly I don't have pictures from any of these exciting events, but I'll make sure to work on that. I love my roommates they're amazing, and I love my Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ, I am so blessed to have them in my life. GOod night World... 

So the semester begins...

This semester has begun and I'm soo busy! I'm sorry it's taken me forever to update my blog! It has been a crazy semester!!! Working, going to school, hanging out with friends, dating, working out, being involved on campus! I feel like there isn't one minute to breathe! 

This is a picture of Brad and Tiffani seeing each other for the first time in about two weeks! They are soo cute! Brad just got back from his mission in Brazil in August and he goes up here at BYU-Idaho and Tiffani is an amazing girl who goes to BYU! She's one of my best friends! 
That's Travis Williams! He got back from his mission in July!!! He's my brother! I love this boy he spoke at my Baptism... Talk on the HOly Ghost! What an impact he and his family has made on me! 
I woke up at 5:50am last saturday when Tiffani was visiting and I have no idea why I woke up so early... I was sad but with my time I decided I'd make breakfast for my friends and roommates... it was fun  :) those hashbrowns were made from scratch! 
That's Dalan's Soccer Team. I went and watched them play! They won!!! I got the juice boxes and rice krispies like you'd get when you were a kid on a soccer team! 
That's me and Kristy above. That's Dalan's girlfriend! We're showin off how we're the coolest soccer girl fans ever! 
My friends Chelsea ( on the left ) and Ashley ( on the right) They're beautiful huh? 
That's Jaclyn, Me, Ruth, and Allie... just chillin in the living room.... wow I love those girls so much! 
Erin and Rochelle... how cute! They're family ( cousins)! Erin is my roommate! She's way funny 
This is when Tiffani had just gotten to Rexburg last weekend. It was the first time we really had gotten to hang out in FOREVER 

And that is Tiffani and Brad running towards each other.... man I love those two... 

So the semester is going! It's Conference weekend right now and I'm loving it. We've only seen the first session  but I already feel like I've gotten so much out of it. Wow I love the power of the Spirit that our General Authorities bring into our lives. What a blessing it is. I love LIFE!! 

It's been way too long.. 

It's been quite the semester already... 

I'm such a busy girl but it's soo much fun!!!

I promise I'll write it up soon! 

I love ya'll!!! 

Brighton Fun!

Me and my roommate Brighton are crazy... at 2am we decide that we want to take crazy photos of ourselves on the Photobooth on my Mac.... Oh college girls... what do you do with them!?