This semester has been quite a semester... I wonder if anyone even really reads my thoughts, but you know... that is not the point of my blog... It is for me to express myself, get my thoughts out... Well. This semester I feel like I've grown alot. I finally reached to the point where I was okay without my ex-boyfriend. He was amazing. That kid is still a good friend of mine, and he's still great, and I hope he's okay. I have just realized we are not the right ones for each other which is GREAT!! Especially since I ended the relationship.. funny how it took me longer to get over.
Then I made this HUGE decision in my life that after I prayed about it earnestly it just didn't feel right. It was hard for me to except my fate of not going through with that huge decision. It was really weird too, because it was a good thing I wanted. It's not like I wanted to do something that was bad for me or anyone else. It was a type of service, but you know it is more important to follow my Heavenly Father. He knows me better then I know myself...
I kinda got myself in this situation too that I let myself kinda get hurt... You know people wonder why I have trust issues... if I could actually trust someone in that area of my life maybe I wouldn't be so unwilling to let that part of my life happen...
I strangely vague but remember this is a selfish blog...
Well I love Michael Buble and his song LOST has been my theme song this past week! I Love that SONG!!!!!
The LYRICS :
I can't believe it's over
I watched the whole thing fall
And I never saw the right man was on the wall
If I don't land
Days were slipping past
That the good things never last
That you were crying
Summer turned to winter
And the snow it turned to rain
And the rain turned into tears upon your face
I hardly recognized the girl you are today
And god I hope it's not too lateIt's not too late
'Cause you are not alone
I'm always there with you
And we'll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
'Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When your worlds crashing down
And you can't bear to fallI said, babe, you're not lost
Life can show no mercy
It can tear your soul apart
It can make you feel like you've gone crazy
But you're not
Things have seem to changed
There's one thing that's still the same
In my heart you have remained
And we can fly fly fly away
'Cause you are not alone
And I am there with you
And we'll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
'Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When the worlds crashing down
And you can not bear to crawl
I said, baby, you're not lost ( 4x)
you can watch the video and listen to it too by clicking here:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7X5cZC5U6dMseriously .... listen to it, it's amazing!