NEW BLOG!!!

I have a new blog!!! It is: 

alexandorchid.blogspot.com!!! 

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TEN DAYS!!!

10 days until I get married to the most amazing wonderfullest amazing boy ever! 

I love the Gospel of Jesus Christ!

I have a seriously strong testimony of tithing and fast offerings. Alex and I are seriously the luckiest soon to be married couple ever. Things have just worked out for us so well! We were originally going to get married on July 25th! It was going to be great and I was actually pretty excited about it, BUT look at this we went into financial aid to figure some stuff out and found out that if we get married before June 30th we'd be able to receive a very nice refund for last year. We've been so worried about money and it was such a relief that we were going to be okay. 

I also have a very strong testimony of prayer. I know that Alex & I have been praying a lot to find the right place to live. Alex went and looked one day at 13 different places and no luck. Then, Yesterday I was given the opportunity not only to put my contract up for sale on Bulletin BOard, but ALSO to look for apartments! There were seriously a bazillion apartments being sold! I called probably 15 people and we looked at four apartments yesterday. We both felt as if we found two places that we both really like and feel at home and it was such a blessing we didn't even realize! Heavenly Father really loves us! He really is watching and praying for us always. 

Last night as Alex & I were saying good night on the phone I was checking my email and this girl, this angel found that she wanted to buy my contract for Summer Second Block! I really hope she buys it. I'm not totally sure yet, but if she does than really everything has been working out for us to get married on JUNE 20th 2009!!!! We really are the most blessed couple alive. 

We also got to register at Bed, Bath, and Beyond yesterday. It was beautiful and wonderful! I felt really lucky to be there. We registered for the coolest stuff, and we tried to be "smarter" about it. We tried not to register for things that were ridiculously expensive, because of course that wouldn't have worked and we also tried to only register for one of the things we needed instead of 50 toasters, for example! I was really excited for that and it was a ton of fun. We still have one more place to register and that's Wal-mart and we'll be done! 

We're hoping to be able to getting the wedding plans in order, right now I'm just having a slightly difficult time finding Bridesmaids dresses, but I hadn't been praying for the help because I just thought well, Heavenly Father doesn't care about that, but last night I started. I have such a testimony of prayer, and JUST doing the things that Heavenly Father asks of us: Paying our Tithing , trying to keep the spirit. WOW I just love the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I am so lucky! 

MY LIFE IS SOOOO GOOD!!!

My brother got baptized. 

I'm getting married July 25th, 2009 to the most gorgeous man on earth 

I'm a daughter of my Heavenly Father. 

MY LIFE ROCKS!!!!

My Brother is getting BAPTIZED!!!!

My baby brother Idean is getting baptized! HOw cool!? Huh!? I've been a member of the church for four years and he's never taken a strong interest. 

He came down for my graduation and he had long conversations with Alex, my fiance, and he just felt the spirit so strongly. I love My little brother and he's such a stud!! He's in the picture on the far left and that is Molly Davis his lady friend *wink* and that's me and my fiance on the right. I'm so sad that I can't be at his baptism, but I'm excited for his baptism! I love him so much and I'm so proud of him! I LOVE YOU BABY BROTHER!!!! 

No Time!!!!

STRESS is the key word to my life lately... I am the I-Team Director and man was I a crazy woman taking that on. I am so blessed for it, but my life has been a mess since! I am so stressed out and have so much to do so if I can just have the prayers of those around me? Yes? Maybe? 

ANYWAYS... I love ALex Christensen 

I love my family 

I love Ashley Akin 

I love everyone!!! 

I'm engaged!

So I got engaged to Alex Marshall Christensen on Saturday Night the 28th of March! It was the craziest thing ever! I did not expect it at all. We had just gotten back from a triple date with Katie, John, Abby & Ryan and we were at his house talking about how much we loved each other and how we just wanted to be together. We went and sat on the step going into his father's room next to the Ferret's cage and theit litter box and it was smelly ( funny ha ha ) and Alex got really quiet while we were talking. His face seemed a little scared and I went on to ask him what was wrong and he said, "I can't" and I said, " You can't what?" and he said, " I can't" and on his side of the story he said he got this prompting from Heavenly Father that he was suppose to ask me at that moment to marry him, but he thought that was crazy. Finally he looked up at me scared and shaking and said, " Orchid, will you marry me?" and I was shocked I was kinda quiet and then my eyes got really big and I look at him and nodded yes. I then asked, " Was that a purposal?" and he said, " I think so." We hugged and kissed and were so excited. We told our families and they were excited as well! We didn't have a ring yet though because he didn't think he'd ask that night. Tuesday morning he tied a piece of string around my finger apologizing for not having a ring. Then the rest of tuesday came... it was such a hard day. I was crying because I was scared and nervous and I just didn't know what to do. I knew I loved him and I knew I wanted to marry him, but everyone asking me about the engagement just stressed me out... So emotionally it was a rough day, but then Alex had come in for the Mentor Training meeting and long story short we went back to his house for dinner. THere was a sweet table set up of candles and a long stem red rose and dinner. Frank Sinatra was playing and it was so romantic. He sat down and served me food and then he got up and got something. He came back to my chair and got down on one knee and started to tear up and said, " Orchid, will you still marry me?" and I said "OF COURSE!" and we both were crying and kissed each other and held each other. This past few days have been crazy and amazing. I love Alex and I'm so excited to marry him. We're getting married July 25th in the Rexburg Temple! Cool, huh?! 

Jenaca, my sister, got engaged that night ( tuesday) and Alex and I went to go see her and my brothers Chase & Travis! 

Engaged girls!! We're getting married 5 days apart!!! 
The ring on the left is mine and the ring on the right is Jenacas'! 
That's me and Al. I don't look cute in that picture because it's been such a long day, but that's the boy I'll be with FOREVER! I love him and I'm so excited! 

Heavenly Father knows

Heavenly Father knows everything...

You'll understand later. 

Grad Fest...

That's a really small picture... ha ha but I really had an incredible experience at Grad Night tonight. President and Sister Clark are so inspired it's crazy. I was in tears of the inspiration they had. I had an amazing talk with Alex last night about the potential that strong young couples have in the church. Today was as if it were out of the mouth of two, three, four, five witnesses. We need not to forget ourselves when we go out into the work force and remember the most important things in this life are what last eternally. We need not get sucked into the lure of the inner circle at our jobs. WOW PRESIDENT CLARK! I feel so blessed! I can't wait to face the world and know that My Savior is on my side and he's watching over me and carrying me through my life! 

So I like this boy....

Ha ha! I've been so happy lately! I just started dating this boy named Alex. He's is the funniest boy! I like him so much!!! He's soo fun! We just have a blast together! We have had so much fun! I don't know what else to say... He's fun! So I thought I'd update this blog of mine!!! 

Too Long!

It has been too long since I last blogged! SO my life has been so crazy lately! THere is only 4 weeks of the semester left and I'm terrified! I don't know if I can do all the work I have to do in four weeks, for school, for I-team, for all sorts of the craziness! Anyways I've been having a really fun time and I don't have much to blog about right now.... actually that was kind of a lie, but I just don't want to blog about it yet. I love the world and my best friend is having a baby any day now!!!!! 

Emotional Roller Coaster!

So so many things in my life have been going on! It is crazy! I'm trying to decide what to do for this summer and I'm trying to get everything organized for SSE!! I'm trying to have a social life as well as doing well in my classes! I'm just soo exhausted! I just thought I'd say that. This past week so many things have happened in my life that I don't even know how to explain! Heavenly Father has blessed me so much with so many promptings in my life! Oh man!!! So anyways Just wanted to leave that little thought with the world. I love my blog I feel like Meg Ryan in You've Got Mail writing out to the void! 

Dreams are made of tears...

Dreams are made of tears....

I miss my mom a lot. She's been having a really hard time back in Iran. I am so sick of people saying, " Isn't that dangerous, her being over there."  I wish people were less ignorant and realized that Iran isn't that dangerous. It's a country like any other. I miss her so much and she calls me crying missing me and my brother.... SHe's made my brother and I her life and doesn't have her own life.... what am I suppose to do to convince her to live her own life... I don't know what to do... I'm tired of the tears I love my family and I don't see her healing.... She's not healing.... I pray for her.... why isn't she healing... I trust him I do, but this hurts... it really hurts, she's my mother why can't I take care of her. My dream is that I can wipe away my tears...

It's been too long, I know!

Okay so I said I'd put pictures up on the blog of Jaclyn's Wedding... but there are so many it's crazy!!!! So here is just one of them with all of Jaclyn's friends and family.... I think I'm turned around in this one... ha ha Anyways doesn't she look like a princess! 

So this semester is going. It's half way through and I'm pretty dang sure I'm going to get a B in one of two of my classes and get an A- in the others. I've been so tired and busy that I just haven't been doing my normal straight A work in classes and you know what.... I'm tired of caring whether I have straight As or not. It's not that big of a deal, right? I mean I am almost 22 years old and I've kicked my bottom in college it's time to take a B just because I don't have the energy to put in the effort... that sounds bad huh? Well anyways I've been having mini panic attacks about all the work I have to do, but luckily I've been way blessed in being able to control myself better! It's great!!!! As soon as I start freaking out a little about all I have to get done, I sit and breathe and say to myself, ya know Orchid It's not that big of a deal.... this semester will be over soon, you'll graduate and you'll be on your way to student teaching! 

Which is coming soon by the way... I student teach this Fall and this summer hopefully I'll just be working trying to save money for Student Teaching. I'm excited for my life to keep going. I This is really random but I just love the Temple. This week I had the blessed opportunity to go twice! Who ever gets that kind of time! I don't know but I think Heavenly Father gave that to me because I was so tired and needed a break from the world and came into his world. I love the peace and serenity you feel in the Temple. It gives me so much hope that life will go on ....lol I'm so dramatic... 

Anyways I love the crazy trials that life throws at you. I know that I'll be getting so crazy ones soon and I've been getting crazy ones this semester... Basically this semester has been absolutely INSANE, but it'll be okay... Right? 

ha ha it's 1:45 in the morning I'm just goin nuts.... 

selfishness...

I’m the worst friend ever…. I’ve been so self abosorbed in my life lately…. All I do in wallow in my own self pity….. OH poor Orchid all her friends are married and she’s not even dating anyone… Wow does that not sound absolutely pitiful… I even forgot my bestfriend’s birthdays… Tiffani’s 21^st birthday and I forgot Lindsay’s 22^nd birthday…. I forgot my Dad’s birthday earlier this year in January ( January 5^th) … and I forgot Katie’s 23^rd birthday January 28^th….

 

I have been so selfish because of my stupid little feelings…. I barely call my friends anymore…

 

I don’t hang out with anyone and constantly only worry about MY grades, and MY feelings, and MY health…. I’ve been so SELFISH and SELF ABSORBED…

 

To all those who feel like I have forgotten about them I promise I haven’t I promise I’m just trying to get over a very very hard virus… ya know…. The virus: Selfishness! Hm….. funny funny….

 

Why would anyone want to date someone who was so wrapped up in her own self pity she forgot her best friends birthdays? I’ve become a bitter spinster and all I am worried about is what the world will think of me being almost 22 and not even in a relationship that’s heading in the path of marriage or even seriousness at all… Everytime I go to a party with all my married friends or engaged friends all they do is say how they have to get me married and how is the dating thing coming along, are you dating anyone? Why aren’t you married… that’s my favorite question since I have SOOO much control over it…. Honestly do you really think I know why I’m not married? I just feel like in the culture of the church it is so relevant for me to be married at this time and to be having children which is not something that I don’t want, but it’s something that hasn’t come yet in my life. I just haven’t found the boy…. Or the boy hasn’t found me either way it hasn’t happened….. and honestly with the plan of salvation one of the reasons we’re here and really of the MOST important reasons is to find our eternal companion and great a life together to bring children into this world and raise them righteously and honestly I have such a GREAT desire for that, but I can’t force it… I can’t just say I want it now and get it now…. Things like this happen on the Lord’s time but in the mean time I wish I wasn’t so selfish….

 

I know this entry is a wah wah wah entry but I almost feel like I don’t know who to talk to…. I’m afraid to say this to anyone’s face so I’m just going to write it out to the world as if it’s a void that won’t reply because I don’t want pity hugs or pity things said to me like, “ oh you’ll find him one day” or “ you’re beautiful, I don’t understand” or “it’s coming soon, I can feel it” …. I need to focus on others more… I’m too into myself…. It’s 2:32 in the morning and I’m not asleep…. I probably should go to bed soon…. Sweet dreams.... Goodnight void…. Goodnight world…. 

Wedding Day!

Today Jaclyn got married! 

I cried so much. I love this girl so much. I don't have pictures up yet but hopefully I'll get them up monday. 

Jaclyn's one of my best friends. There are very few people in the world that I feel that I really will keep in touch with them for the rest of my life. Jaclyn is one of them. She has given me so much confidence, and taught me so much in my life of where true confidence comes from. I love that girl so much and only wish and pray and hope that her dreams came true today and will ffor the rest of her life... 

Where is the reverence?

This is a post to just let out all my anger.... 

I just don't understand, when you are 23, 24, 25 years old shouldn't you be more mature than to make faces or be irreverent in sacrament meeting or during ward choir. 

Thank goodness Ward Choir Director is not my calling. I do not feel the spirit in my Ward this semester because some people are so rude. They talk while in sacrament, they don't listen to the speakers, they don't listen to the hymns... They're ridiculous how they don't even seem to respect the actual passing of the sacrament! 

I'm not trying to be Molly Mormon or try to be Self Rigteous, but seriously we're all over the age of 18 have some maturity please.... 

Side Effects...

Warning Sign

Be careful there are many side effects to this life....

SO I've been thinking a lot about my life lately. I'm on this medicine right now and they just put me on a higher dosage and I've been exhausted. I'm really tired all the time and my doctor thinks that it could be the medicine I'm taking because I'm healthy.... They've taken so many tests on my little body and I'm apparently one of the healthiest people ever! ha ha... I hope I figure out what's wrong with me soon.... 

So about life... I've been thinking a lot about of my life.... It's really interesting... In my little bubble world many people think that at my age I should be married or I should be in a steady relationship... it's not that I don't want to be in one it's just that there hasn't been an opportunity in my life were me and a boy have had the same amount of feelings for each other to commit. I'm actually really happy about my life though. I work really hard to get good grades,  I have wonderful friends that love me, I have a healthy family, I am blessed with with this amazing gospel, with my amazing opportunities to serve on this campus, with my amazing opportunity to be given a scholarship to go to school here. I do love so much to be here in Rexburg. 

For the side effects... There are people that think of me as being odd and look down at me for not being  in a relationship! I feel like that is something that I have left in the hands of Heavenly Father. I'm social enough, most people at my school if they don't know me personally know of me... things will work out... I know they will 

I wish Christmas was still here...

I miss the spirit of Christmas... I know we can have it all year but I miss it.... Christmas didn't feel like Christmas this year....  

As long as there's Christmas 

I truly believe 

that hope is the greatest of the gifts we'll receive 

As long as a guiding star 

shines above 

there'll always be christmas 

let there always be a time where the world is filled with peace and love 

As airheaded and as Mrs. America as this sounds around Christmas time that's when I feel that the world is most at peace.... 

I miss Christmas 

I'm in love

with my roommate Brighton. shes the best :) the end!

Christmas time it's a New Year Rhyme!

So it's 2009.....*sigh* WOW... I can't believe a whole entire year has gone by. To be honest though, I've always kind of seen the year as the school year. It's funny, but most new year's eve's I haven't taken really seriously as a totally new year. This year though I am I suppose. I feel like I made so much progress this year in my life and have seen a lot of things that I liked and disliked about myself. I want to keep going with the goals that I have set that are good, and try to ride of those that are bad. I also want to make better goals. My next entry I'm going to list out my goals for this year. I have been pretty good at keeping my goals. I love this new year business, It should be great!!! 

This is my dad and I, New years Eve at O'Charley's! I love my daddy I don't get to see him very often so it's good when I do. 
This is my baby brother. He's such a stud and so smart! I miss him!!
These are some friends that I have been so lucky to hang out with. In a glad note most of them will be out west with me soon! 
Christmas Eve was wonderful hanging out with my Church Family. These people have blessed my life more than you could ever imagine and I am sooo grateful for them. I love them with all my heart. 
This was a pic from my Christmas work party. These ladies have made such a huge impact in my life and I am so glad that I know them. I love them so much! 

Well... 

It was Christmas time 

and all was great! 

It's now a New Year Rhyme 

and I am ready for this new state!!!!